You know those moments in your life where you learn something you wish you never had? That just happened to me last night and it turns out everything I thought I knew about myself and my life was a complete fucking lie. And the worst part is I can't actually talk to anyone about this because I'm not even supposed to know about any of it. FUCK
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Friday, 17 July 2009
It never ceases to amaze me how much I can fuck myself up...
Monday, 29 June 2009
Not really sure what I am going to say but just felt like blogging anyway. I have been too scared to get on the scale for a week because I am pretty sure I have gained weight :( but at least this time I am trying...
I am really pissed off though because I can't run because I am too heavy and have shin splints. The other day I tried to go for a run but had to stop because it hurt so bad I literally couldn't stand and I never stop my work outs like that. It just sucks because after a year and a half of staying as far away from running as possible, now its all I want to do and I can't do it. It just makes me kick myself in the ass all over again for letting me get so fat and unfit.
There is something about watching Disney Channel that is so calming. I swear I am not a creeper but what I would have given to look like the Disney girls too... They will never feel ashamed to show pictures of their childhoods because they are perfect. I know I'm not supposed to dwell on the past, but I can't help but wish i had looked like them because I think life would have been so much easier.